Monday, February 26, 2007

"Active Rest"

Today was decent. Nice weather, boring atmosphere. I'm nearly done with reading Fellowship of the Ring for nearly the second time. I understand it a lot more the second time around. There is quite a bit of old english in it. The old testament in the NKJ Bible has helped me in that area as well. Tolkien, for me, sometimes goes into too much detail describing surroundings, designs, etc. It gets a bit confusing and at times exhausting. But I've caught on a little better. It has definitely stretched my mind.

I got the book "Grace Walk" by Steve McVey today. I'm very excited to read and apply it.

I'm in kind of an iffy mood today. I don't feel much like talking. I'm trying to learn to trust God and let Him deal with me. It's difficult and a little scary to surrender yourself, try not to try and let the Lord change you Himself. I know I can't do it. The most I can make it is a few days and then I'm weary, angry, irritable, frustrated and exhausted. So I know trying isn't the key to living the life God would have me live. I need to die and He needs to live. "He must increase and I must decrease."

I'm learning Jesus isn't only the Savior from hell, but also from the power and dominion of sin. It's the Son who makes us free. You would think this obvious to believers, but we are still walking around, bearing the burden of sin ourselves and then telling non-believers that "The Christian life is a life of peace and contentment."

Jesus said "Come to me all you who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest."

Resting sounds easier than working. That is so far from the truth. Resting, it would seem, is the simplest of simple. I beg to differ.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Righteousness Restored

Isaiah 11:6-9

"The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb, The leopard shall lie down with the young goat,
The calf and the young lion and the fatling together; And a little child shall lead them. The cow and the bear shall graze; And the lion shall eat straw like the ox. The nursing child shall play by the cobra's hole, And the weaned child shall put his hand in the viper's den. They shall not hurt nor destroy in all My holy mountain, For the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the LORD as the waters cover the sea.

One of my favorite passages I just felt like posting...

Somber Sunday

It is pretty nasty outside today. I went to bed late last night and woke up with no clothes washed so I didn't go to church at Don and Susanne's this morning. I'm going to go to our pastor Matt's house this evening with my friend Ronnie.

Not much to write about today. I'm sitting here plugged into my ipod. I've just finished watching Steve McVey's Grace Walk Experience videos. God has definitely blessed him with a great amount of wisdom and I am blessed to learn the truths he preaches so early in my life as a believer. Though getting my mind focused and renewed is a never ending work in itself. It is hard to believe a lot of times that I am going to be allowed to spend eternity with God almighty, Creator of the universe. Why me? Is it really so easy? Praise God, it is easy. He didn't make salvation complicated. Children understand the gospel better than a Yale graduate. He has "hidden these things from the wise and revealed them to babes." I love our Father. He was also "found by those who did not seek Him." I am one of them. This truth, I knew in myself, which is why I could never become Arminist even though I had despised the doctrine of election. To despise election is to despise grace. I understand that now. Although I don't want to end up like some who take it too far and before they know it, they start preaching predestination rather than the gospel.

I'm rambling. But I am so in love with our God. How huge He is. I think about how awesomely enormous the universe is and think about verses in Ezekiel and Revelation that describe God's appearance. His body being like glowing metal with fire inside. Feet like bronze in a furnace, holding stars in His hand, sitting on a throne "like sapphire". He is the absolute of absolute holiness and purity. It boggles my mind to think He would care at all for me.

There is no God like Jehovah. He is awesome and infinite in power and glory. He gives you this feeling of fear, yet at the same time, you feel like you're right where you belong.

So, I let my mind wander again..

Saturday, February 24, 2007

God is great

So, a new blog. I have had nearly a few of these already. It keeps me busy as I have nothing to do during the day apart from cleaning, reading and learning to love my Father of My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To many, I live a very boring life. But I will argue that God keeps my life very interesting. I don't do much physical work, but one thing I do is work to believe. Without my Lord Jesus Christ life would be very aimless and scary to say the very least. It is a struggle to believe most of the time, especially taking into consideration that I will have only been a believer in the Lord Jesus for only close to a year now. I still am still sometimes "blown about by winds of doctrine". But God has always brought me back to pure and sound doctrine even when the others were so much more easier to believe. For some reason I couldn't accept them. That reason is God. "My sheep hear My voice, I know them and they follow Me." He is definitely deep rooting me in the Lord Jesus. My love continues to grow for Him everyday. I realize spiritual growth is the same as physical. You don't feel it. You don't even notice it until after you have grown. It hurts a lot at times to grow. A lot. Especially letting go. It hurts to relax. Humans want to see and control. I had no idea how prideful humans are about everything until I became a believer. And one weird thing is that we don't even realize how deep pride goes.

This all really has nothing to do with beginning a new blog, but I'm pretty good at letting my mind wander.

Hopefully I can meet some new interesting people here or something to pass a little time.