It's so irritating to lose my ear plugs! Stupid things. I forget what pants I was wearing the last time I was using them.
I have to use ear plugs when using our vacuum because it sounds sort of like Apollo 13 taking flight when you switch the power on. And I have sensitive ears from blaring music into my ears with mp3 players over the past few years, so I can't vacuum without them. Darn it to pieces.
So...I have put in applications at Best Buy and Books-a-Million. Hoping to hear back from them soon as they both had openings. I'm trusting that God is gonna take care of me getting hired and all that. I'm very nervous about being hired though, especially working with a cash register. I have all these fears of not being able to offer help, screwing up, etc, etc. I've never had a job before and it's going to be really stressful when I first start. I'm scared I won't be able to count money back to people quickly and smoothly enough and stuff like that. I sound like a valley girl.
But one thing that has been concerning me is the desire to have the mind of Christ. The attitude of a servant and to be humble and submissive, doing all things without complaining. Sometimes I simply lack holy desires all together. Some days I have no feelings or desires to love, and the only feelings I can sense are those that want to look out for myself, and please only myself. Whether in the flesh or in the Spirit, I don't want to be too critical, always wondering if what I am doing is coming from my own self effort or the Spirit. Deep (WAY deep) inside this body of death are the desires to be like my Jesus and to behave sensibly and mature in this world, making the best use of the time. It's so frustrating because I slip into that mindset for a while and then lose it. I don't want to be personally offended when people look down on me or mistreat me. I am a son of the Most High! I have a wonderful, eternal inheritance! I don't need others to like me and I don't need earthly wealth! I have everything in Christ! I'm not saying it's wrong to have others approve of me or to have earthly wealth, but I want my heart set on the Kingdom.