Alright, so I'm confused once again about how I am to live as a believer.
Is it that we are to trust in Jesus Christ and then go out and trust Him to empower us to live Godly lives, or do we wait for Him to change us? When I go out and trust Jesus to live in me, there seems to be a lot of times where I see things that don't look so Christ-like. And I also eventually lose control and cannot get my mind on Jesus. Some days I'm just not able to focus enough to trust Jesus to live in me and through me. When everything inside me feels contrary to what I would like to do, how do I get Christ to live through me? There are times when I simply do not have the capacity to love someone or even be nice and the only thing I know to do is to shut up.
To put it simply, I am asking this: Am I to wait for the fruit, or do I go out and believe Christ will produce it?
When I try to live by faith in Jesus to produce fruit in me, I eventually get exhausted and unfocused.