Not that I don't want to do things when asked, but I just don't want to do it from a heart of trying to prove myself to my Father or to make Him like me. I want to learn to do the things He wants done because I love Him and worship Him. I don't want to be a slave to good works or trying to earn grace. The word grace means unmerited favor, so why am I trying to merit God's unmerited favor? You'd be surprised at how easy you can slip into this. It looks holy and nice but it's from a heart of unbelief in the work of Christ. Do I believe He made me accepted in the Beloved or do I have to, by constant working and keeping busy, make myself likable before God? Screw that.
When one starts to think he has to consistently go to his neighbors house everyday for at least 4-5 hours in order to sort of get his time in, thats when we become lifeless. Thats when our living in worship toward God becomes dead religious works. If I feel compelled to do something out of a sense of unworthiness, then I just don't need to do it. I want to learn to say no to people. I don't have to be some chauffeur bustling around with an anxious heart trying to please this God who is never satisfied. And rightly so. All our righteous works are as filthy rags.
"We were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through LOVE, serve one another."
Notice it doesn't say through guilty and obligation serve one another. It says in freedom and love.
Get off that treadmill of guilt and refuse to listen to people who would seek to manipulate you into the bondage of religion by guilt and shame. You say you believe in the work of Christ alone. Live like it! Complaining of ourselves with constant anxiety in our hearts that we're not doing enough for God is not faith. It's slowly drifting back under a covenant of self-centered performance. We're to be Christ-centered disciples. How are we to be Christ-centered if we're so self-centered! We're also not employees. We're sons and daughters. Quit living like an employee.
When they came to Capernaum, the collectors of the two-drachma tax went up to Peter and said, "Does your teacher not pay the tax?" He said, "Yes." And when he came into the house, Jesus spoke to him first, saying,