If I could have one permanent grace, it would be to remain brokenhearted. For my Jesus, his Gospel and for people. To remember that I am no better than they are and that I am no more lovable by God because of my efforts to avoid sin. Sin never once changed his view of any human. If it had, he would not have endured 33 years on this earth and then allow himself to be of no reputation, was stripped, tortured and crucified. That doesn't seem like a God who hates fags to me.